Addiction

I tried a dangerous and expensive new drug and now I'm afraid I'm addicted. I don't know what it's called in English, but in mandarin, it sounds like "lencheeji." It's so addictive that if I'm not using for even one minute, I start feel really uncomfortable and uneasy. My body starts sweating and I have trouble doing even the simplest of tasks. The withdrawals are so bad that now that I tried it, I basically will do anything to get it. My habit is costing me thousands of ntd per month. In the day time, I can't work without it, and I basically spend my time hurrying from one lencheeji traphouse to another. Fortunately, I guess, it's available literally everywhere in the city - I see users on the MRT, lurking in the underground walkways, in the 7 -elevens and fami's, openly using in restaurants, in cars, on buses. It's crazy. The other day, I took an uber and the driver was so hopped up on lencheeji that he wasn't even breaking a sweat, even though it was 35 degrees and 100% humidity.
I didn't expect to get hooked, but I guess no one does. I tried it work (actually, I've been a regular user at work for some time. I should mention some workplaces are stingier about it than others), and in restaurants and nightclubs sometimes. I thought I would never get hooked as long as I didn't use it at home. I made it many months without ever turning on the purpose made dispenser, but last night I broke down, and now here I am, with it cranked to max, getting my fix for the second night in a row. I'll probably keep using, even as I sleep. I'm dreading that when I wake, I'm going to have to go 20 minutes without it on the way to work. Maybe I'll just hire that uber again and see if he'll share some of his stash. This is definitely going to kill my monthly budget, but now that I popped the cherry, I think there's no going back. I wonder if it's possible to OD and actually freeze to death.